survivalist
I feel like I was meant to go through this
would I be here without the fear?
I pushed through hella shit
I wonder what woulda happened if this didn’t occur
I wonder where would I be at without my hook and verse

asking me all the questions like I planned the situations that I’m facing
ain’t nothing artificial, never fakin’, keep your tissue
I pushed through all the issues that I been through
far as I could go back my venting was my sports and music
I pursued it
distract them racing thoughts
ran from cops
broke the laws
drugs and alcohol
what I was called
take a sip, then reminiscing
‘bout my fam cause I am missin’ all o’ y’all
been locked in prison and they took my visits

survivalist
I feel like I was meant to go through this
would I be here without the fear?
I pushed through hella shit
I wonder what woulda happened if this didn’t occur
I wonder where would I be at without my hook and verse

where would I be if this did not occur?
where would I be without his hook and verse?

october 17, 1983
a young puppy was born, it musta been me
I was raised on the streets but I’ve never been free
I lost my mother and daddy, my whole family
what else was I expected to be, destined to see?
the penitentiary, I hope you feelin’ me
I never lost nothin’ cause I never had nothin’
I always wanted somethin’ but the government gonna take it
I wanted my mom but she was smokin’ that crack
can’t blame her for that
the government supplyin’ the sack
and then they want us locked up
it’s fucked up
how the church left us alone on the streets like stuck
how is it my fault that I became what I am
when I never had no mother and I never had no dad
that’s like blaming a child for not knowin’ how to read
when he’s never been to school and he’s never been teached

where would I be if this did not occur?
where would I be without his hook and verse?

they took your brother and sister away
placed you in a foster home with strangers and all you can do is pray
and at age 11 I was ready to die
put a rope around my neck
tried to commit suicide
I was traumatized
I ain’t afraid to admit it
I was conditioned to be mentally ill and criminal minded
memories stay rewindin’
searchin’ but never findin’

18 years of age when I hit the penitentiary
thought it was ok but it was affecting my family
reality, kickin’ in so mentally I —
had to get my shit together cause I can’t be here forever
never will I ever self destruct, ‘cause I know I’m better
I know I’ve been going through things but it’s gotta change
and I ain’t playing, most fall victim but I maintain
easily pushin’ through pleasure, gotta push through pain
hardest thing I ever had to deal with was the pride
‘cause where I’m from, if they’re disrespectful you ride
and where he’s from it’s the only way to survive
pushing and striving, my way to stay alive

survivalist
I feel like I was meant to go through this
would I be here without the fear?
I pushed through hella shit
I wonder what woulda happened if this didn’t occur
I wonder where would I be at without my hook and verse

where would I be if this did not occur?
where would I be without his hook and verse?